cancer
Posted on Wed, Jun 06 2007 @ 4:43 PM [CST]
[Comments] [Send Article] [Improper]Today started out being a great day.Lots of sunshine and cool temps. But things went downhill real fast. I got a call from my sister that I was dreading. My Dad is in the hospital. He's been getting chemo for awhile now and has been having trouble keeping anything down. Now I just found out that they are giving him about a year to live. That is something nobody wants to hear. The worst part is I'm over 400 miles from home and having a serious breakdown(emotional). I finally had to park and swap loads with my wife.We're both at the Petro @ Perrysburg, Ohio.The load I had goes to Youngstown and hers will get me home. I'm in no condition to be out on the road right now, so I'm going to stay here and wait for her to get back. Even with taking happy pills to control my depression, I still took a major down hill slide to the point of having some very bad thoughts again. Thank God for my wife and cellphones. She stayed on the phone with me and helped me get through it. I'm doing a little better now. At least I'm not having the suicidal thoughts right now. This next while will prove to be extremely hard on the whole family. I wish I could say he will make it through this, but right now it's real hard for me to stay positive. I watched my father-in-law slowly die from lung cancer. Everytime I got home for a weekend I could see how much his health had deteriorated. It was hard to watch. Now it's happening again. He's already dropped alot of weight and strength.
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The problem wasn't my dispatcher. I could've been home late last night. I was the problem. I had a major relapse with my depression. I didn't trust myself behind the wheel. I stayed at the truckstop until this morning. I got the laptop out and tryed to keep my mind busy doing other things. Just sitting behind the wheel gives me too much time to think and possibly sink even lower. I was suicidal while driving before I got help. I had come close to ending it that time and I was afraid it might have happened again. It is an extremely scary feeling
Comment By:
Roadhzrd on Thu, Jun 07 2007 @ 8:02 PM [CST]
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Roadhzrd on Thu, Jun 07 2007 @ 8:02 PM [CST]
Hey bud I'm on your side hang in there..Don't do anything drastic..I'm here for ya..If your not around who's gonna put a bootprint on my ass?..(trying to be funny)..Things will get better..Maybe a good deal of fishing might help..Stay with us..VM-out!
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VM on Fri, Jun 08 2007 @ 4:22 AM [CST]
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VM on Fri, Jun 08 2007 @ 4:22 AM [CST]
Ya want a boot print on yer ass? Ya came to the right place, pod'ner. Hey, Roadhzrd, you were there when I needed some reassurance so consider it done for you. send me an email at lenutt@hotmail.com then I will send you my main email address where you talk to me and say anything you need to say. Hang in there, pard.
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lenutt on Sat, Jun 23 2007 @ 4:22 PM [CST]
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lenutt on Sat, Jun 23 2007 @ 4:22 PM [CST]
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VM on Thu, Jun 07 2007 @ 3:26 AM [CST]