The life of a truck driver is the hardest life,I believe is the hardest life to lead especially if the family involves little ones and they are the one's that suffer the most.I have been an over the road driver for 15 years and the hardships and struggles have been many and due to one bad marriage it has cost me everything,from bad credit to paying child support to a woman who knows and I know I'm not the biological father.I am finally in the process of trying to get this takin care of,but with the way life is going right now it makes it very hard to do financially.I would also like to add that I have not saw or talked to the child in over 5 years and would like to say I tried evrything I could to save the marriage and it wasn't over trucking either.It was over the woman being unfaithful to say it lightly,but that's another story.
I finally found a good woman and one that I love with all my heart and she has sacrificed alot just to be with me and has suffered from it and me being the type of man I am still hurts over it.She made a descision to leave the kids at Grandma's and travel with me.We really had no other choice.I had a accident 3 years ago to my upper back and neck while fixxing a tarp on a flatbed and am still suffering from it,due to working for a guy I've known all my life and him canceling his workers comp,right before my accident(HARDSHIP#2).I was off work 3 months struggling with a wife and 3 kids.I finally said piss on the pain and I will just eat pain pills and go to work local,hauling asphalt,rock,and coal for a man I have drove for 3 times before.I was living in my hometown during this time helping take care of my grandmother who raised me and was in bad health.The landlord never fixxed the plumbing so we lived there rent free for about 4 months and went to grandma's to take showers.Well my boss felt sorry for me I guess and told us we could move onto his property in a nice 3 bedroom 2 bath mobile home.It was a hard descision to move away from my grandmother but we had to.So here we are living in a nice mobile home and me working for a guy who basically is using me and paying me so little I couldn't even pay my bills.My grandmother knew this and was in the process of buying us a home.She died in a house fire in January 2005 and a few days before that my mother said she was crying and said she was so worried about me and before she could get my uncle off of the power of attorney she passed away.I am still yet not recovered from this.I nevefr did anything to my uncle he was so jealous of me and now since my granfather didn't parish I will not get anything until then if there is anything left,even though I remember my grandmother showing me when I was a teenager money she had for me,but me being not to smart in this area I will just wait and see(Hardship#3).Well I finally got tired of my boss doing this to me and confronted him and told him he would have to start paying me right,thinking he would not want to loose a good driver.2 weeks later he fires me and tells me to get out of his house and this was around the hollidays.Here we are a family of 5 with no one to help us and little money.We put all our possessions in storage and a church helped us with Christmas and a hotel(WHAT A WAY TO SPEND CHRISTMAS)(HARSHIP#4).At the beginning of 2006 we decided to let the kids stay at grandma's and we would go back on the road.All was going pretty good and making decent money,but it was really hard to save alot due to my wife not being a driver and me really not blaming her and helping out at home with the kids.$320.00 a month comming out for child support burned my ass but I couldn't afford an attorney.
Well Sept 20th I fell in Little Rock and broke my back and the company was reluctant on paying me workers comp and I didn't recieve my last check.Due to me not turning in my hotel receipts that somehow was takin out of a truck that they already had in the shop giving it a P.M.That was the day we was to leave and we took all our stuff from the hotel and placed in the truck while we went to get a loner car.It took them a whole week to get me home and everyday I was being ran to a truck stop gettin an advancement for the room.Their own doctor told them they was causing me more damage.They even wanted me to sleep in the truck.Can you believe that.So we make it back home and with the money we have saved which is a couple of thousand and not knowing if we were going to get workers comp are right back in a motel.(HARDSHIP#5).We finally get $4000.00 saved up for a contract for deed home(AL THE MONEY WE HAVE)and my truck get's bad gas and it cost me $500.00 to get it fixxed.It messed it up bad.So here we are still in a motel and have $3500.00 already paid on home and so broke.We are hoping for a miracle and wondering if we made the right decsision on the home.The workers comp nurse is saying I should be getting better and I tell her she is nuts because I am still dying.Even my doctor don't know how to take her.All i have had was x-rays and due to get a MRI soon Which i know is going to blow that nurses mind.With me and her being at home we have decided when I am able if ever to go back to work I will stay local.
Times are tough and I know there are people out there who have it alot harder than I do and I am not the type to let all these trials to get the best of me.It's my family who I worry about.I know in my heart my wife will always be by my side.She has proven to me in the 5 years of us being married what type of woman she is.I pray for all of you drivers that are single to find a woman like mine.An angel that God has given to me and through him all things are possible.I stay positive almost all the time,but at this very moment the reason I am bearing my soul is that I'm scared.I don't have the money I need or the time to get it on my checks before this house closing and it has caused me about a weeks worth of sleep.Everything was fine until that dang bad gas and just that small amount of money has got me behind.I can believe it though look at all my hardships in this blog.Something is bound to happen and it did.I just am glad the kids got all they wanted for Christsmas this year because last year wasn't so good and even if we are in a motel it is a better one.I be damned if I ever stay in another roach motel.So I will pay the extra money for my kids sake and my sanity.Thanks for listening all you drivers out there and may God bless you on your travels and he keep your family safe while your gone and I wii pray every night for you all and please do the same for me.I will miss you all and the west so much,but my family needs me and I cannot let them down.I do have an attorney for everything and I know the lord is going to bless me soon.Until then I will endure what I have to and become stronger each step of the way as I wish this upon you all .Until next time all my trucker friends be save and remember the CLIFFHANGER and family in your prayers.One more thing,Take a good look at the beauty of our great nation and relish it as I already know you do,because you don't really know what tommorow may bring.I will always remember the peace I had out in the west and how close toGod I felt.It is a magnificant country we travel and please stop throwing the piss bottles all over it.LOL!!!!!![summary][/summary]
